The Cry of My Heart

To update this site everyday, I am constantly thinking about what to write about. Today was no different. Jonathan was back in school today and I had three hours to myself of thinking and praying. As I was walking, I was praying about what to write. The only thing that God kept saying over and over was write what is in your heart. My heart has a love for children. Before our adoption process started for HannahKate, we tried unsuccessfully for three years to have another child. I longed for another child so much that it would bring tears to my heart to hear of a baby dying too soon. I would become angry about not being able to have that child and I heard God constantly telling me, "Be patient and know that I am God." It is the hardest thing to keep praying for patience, but once we started the adoption process a whole new world was opened up to us. We had no idea that you could love a child so much that is not even seen or felt yet, but God allowed our daughter to grow in our hearts, even in the heart of our son. We still have not been able to hold our daughter in our arms yet, which still brings heartache on some days, but our excitement gets greater each day the closer we get to bringing her home. There are days I have wondered why I was not able to have successful pregnancies like so many women around me, but I read a devotion today that struck my heart. The devil loves to keep us focused on all the things that we should be instead of the things that we are. God is our master creator. "We are clothed by our Creator with strength and dignity both in character and in heart" (God Chicks, Holly Wagner). So take it to heart, God makes no mistakes and we are His perfect creation allowing His perfect will to bring Him glory. Thank you, Lord, for letting me see your blessings in my life each and every day. I can never praise you enough for my family.

"Every good and perfect gift is from above,
coming down from the Father in Heaven."
James 1:17